It’s January 3rd, and I’m not really sure in what direction my life is supposed to go. Tomorrow is my half birthday. I’ll be 22 this year. Some of my high school friends are already getting engaged. I’ve learned to keep my guard up against the religious folks, who might not even realize that they’re […]

i can’t tell you where i end and other people, spirits, forces, objects, souls and hearts begin. maybe that’s a boundary issue maybe i’m just lost but i’m not lost. i’m wandering, wandering. wandering. and i’m merged and i’m finding. i read a book that confirmed scientifically how much our personalities can change in our 20s more […]

I can go away and come back all in the same day. Like waves. I get lost and suffer through the worse sickness of the sea and then I come back. It happens so fast. All of this, all of this is happening so fast. I’m here for it. I’m here. I am on the […]

somebody just comes into my life and shakes up every bone inside my body, rattling up the earth beneath my feet and stirring me up at the core. Yeah, that sounds dramatic. Life’s not light and airy. If it is, I don’t want it. Give me the hard stuff, Lord, and compel me to take […]

To be completely honest, I spend a lot of the time walking this world afraid. I can’t always see a light at the end of the tunnel and I feel trampled over in the dark. I’m scared. I’m so scared and I feel so alone but I’m hanging. in. there. I’m hanging in because I […]

I miss things that I can’t put into words because I don’t know how. Correction – because some things just aren’t meant to be worded. Some things are just felt, and felt so strongly that the mere thought of nailing them down to the alphabet realm, is too much. Because these feelings are too much. […]

I have no idea where I am or how I can be found

I just wasn’t letting it be.

I get worked up a lot because of how different my relationships are with every person in my life. I worry that I act one way with one person and a totally different way with someone else. And that this someone else will find out. And not like me. Well what I know about me […]

It’s the littlest of moments. The microscopic ones. And not just because they all add up to form a whole, but because in every moment’s essence stands an unafraid and unique energy, before we try to make sense of it. Before we try to fit it in with the puzzle pieces of our lives. Those […]